Why i felt this way? A loner feeling.

After i recieve your text last night. I was totally speedless, You did not give me a chance to explain what's with M & S. You just heard from Marcus or whoever it is. Then you start to scabble those typing.

And today, I went out in the early morning. And went back home after something happened. My mind full with thoughts. I wanted to call you, by that time. I just wanna simply dial your phone number and cry my lungs out. Only you understand what happened earlier on this morning, you understand, but you will be totally dissapointed and hang the phone. Or maybe in the first place, you saw my phone calls, you just ignore it or leave it alone. I went back home alone without anyone accompany me on the phone. Usually you chat with me till i'm safely back home. This time, i nearly fall off from the staircase while i'm crying back home. Despite, Last night after i reciever message, i'm too moodless to eat my dinner. I did not get any better sleep untill 4:50 a.m and woke up at 6:10 a.m and turn up to dizziness.

Why you did not give me chance to explain everything clear to you, Rather than you just message me and peace you off. I having headache+dizziness. Probably, i could vomit anytime. Yeah, yeah. I'm writing this blog because of you. And if you know about this blog and ask me to delete it alway, I would just detest you and ignore you.

I still remember some days back, I was on the phone with KangRong.
And he said that he had hard to please his girlfriend to sleep.
By that time i ask him to shutup and told him i could cry out loud anytime.
I remember how you harsh me to sleep, i alway want you to accompany me more on the phone then exchanging messages. Then i'll cried and ask you not to sleep so early. But you told me you'll alway give me a love message if i sleep early. Yah, yah. I alway fall into this trick and listen to you. But do i have the chance now. You ask me not to bother you anyone, you said that i'm irritating. By then, last time i said you are irritating and you said, "how irritating i am, i still will love you." Why do i have to waste on the money buying you our 4th month anniversary and the upcoming christmas? I hope this time i won't fall to this crush.